earthquake!! shet!! pinakamalakas na earthquake qng naexperience!
kamusta naman... muntik na masira 2ng gate nmin.. tpos, ung bubong d2 sa garahe, mejo storage xa.. eh ang daming gamit, mga pang-bandang gamit, mga gamit sa paggawa ng bed, mga metal, bsta malalaking gamit. buti nlng ndi xa bumigay, ang galing tlga ni God. I LOVE YOU! nanginginig na 2ng buong paligidko, nkatingin lng ako sa taas ksi akala ko nga malalaglagan na kmi. tae. si cj ndi manlng nramdaman ung lindol, its over na kmi 2log prin xa. tae. haha. eh bsta, nanginginig na 2ng mga kagamitan namin, as in... buti wlang nasira.. tpos, buti nlng tlga ndi bumigay 2ng storage face.
kung saka-sakali, no more twins. wala ng hihintayin si max, at louie. tae. back to basics.
SHET!! NAHANAP KO YUNG POEM KO NUNG HS PA AKO!! HAHAHA! TAE!! "EMO"-ISH PA YUNG PAGIISIP KO PUNYETA NAKAKATAWA NAMAN. hahaha!!!
welcome kayong pagtawanan to :D
Despair
Giving my time just for you is the least thing that I can do Even though we were not meant to be I am sure, I can make you happy
You are here giving me light out here in the darkest night I thank you for sharing your time and now I'm hoping, for you to be mine
There will be the time you will cry dont forget, I am here to make you smile You're waiting for a special friend yet, I am here, waiting for you 'till the end
And now you're crying, I'm still here waiting for you, 'till death comes near I'm here, waiting for you to be mine well then, go ahead, take your time
WAG NAMAN SOBRANG HARSH ANG PAGTAWA NYO SA POEM KO. PUNYETA NAMAN KASI BATANG PAGIISIP YAN EH!!! HAHAHAHA!!!
SHET!! NAHANAP KO YUNG POEM KO NUNG HS PA AKO!! HAHAHA! TAE!! "EMO"-ISH PA YUNG PAGIISIP KO PUNYETA NAKAKATAWA NAMAN. hahaha!!!
welcome kayong pagtawanan to :D
A Foolish Way No happiness would fill me up No loneliness will tear me down There is someone, something in this world Only you can make and destroy the way i am
Your trust gives you friends Your friends give you enemies Your enemies give you peace And peace will keep you awake
My fear keeps me strong Enduring all the words you've spoken I've forgoten all the treasures i've got Throwing them into the depths of hate
Drowning with humiliation Keeping my mind stable I'm still following a track
WAG NAMAN SOBRANG HARSH ANG PAGTAWA NYO SA POEM KO. PUNYETA NAMAN KASI BATANG PAGIISIP YAN EH!!! HAHAHAHA!!!
"Sometimes God would intentionally break our legs when he finds us wandering into unchartered territories. He actually does that to keep us from further walking closer and closer to our own death."
"That means he hurts us to save us."
"But it would take a humble heart to understand this. Otherwise, it will cause the person to miss the point and rebel against God. The point being that God actually meant well in hurting him."
sa mga nangyayari ngayon sa amin, alam po namin na may rason, at alam nmin na may mission, at ang mga ito ay pansamantala lamang God is with us, God never left us alone, God guides us.
di ko na masyadong matandaan ung exact lines na sinabi nung priest, pero yan ang pagkakaintindi ko. :)
ang last words na sinabi nung pari:
there is a reason, there is a mission, everything is in transition
ok may sumulpot nnman na thought sa pagiisip ko :D
Kahit kailan, hindi nag-fail si God sa atin. Lalo na sa pagsubok, tao na mismo ang sumusuko sa mga pagsubok na binibigay nya, dahil sa totoo lang, yun ang tanging way para maaccept mo na nandyan sya, at yun lang ang daan patungo sa Kanya, ang "pagsubok"
madami na aqng blessing na natatanggap galing sa Kanya. at the same time, may mga pagsubok na katapat ang blessing na binibigay nya...
katulad nlng smin ni louie, napakalaking blessing xa para skin, at the same time, may napakalaking pagsubok naman kmi ngayon.
pra skin, may laging may trials na kasunod ang blessing, dahil, kailangan natin malampasan ang trials na yun, para maPROVE natin sa Kanya na deserving tayo sa blessing na bnigay nya
alam ko ung isang thread ko na "Balance part 1" eh sa akin lang yun... skin lng may concern un ok???
Yung thread na un ang side ko.. gets?
ang thread na to, focus kay Louie, ok? kay LOUIE.
soooo.. e2 na...
xempre agree kaming pareho sa POSITIVE side na naiisip ko. oh well. cno bang may ayaw ng positive results sa NAPAKAHIRAP na TEST diba?
sa NEGATIVE side na naiisip ko, lugi si louie... kasi, ang iniisip ko nun, sarili ko lang.. kaya ginawa ko 2ng post na to, para sa maging balanse naman para sa side nya.
ang skin lang, napakanegative tlga nung NEGATIVE ko. HINDI deserving si Louie na masaktan.
What if, ndi talaga kami para sa isa't-isa? What if, sa simula plng ndi na dpat ako napamahal sa isang tao, dahil alam kong masasaktan ko lang siya? What if mangyari ang NEGATIVE side na naiisip ko?
WOW ha! ndi tama, lugi eh. sobrang hindi tama. Hindi ko hahayaan na ako lang ang magbbenefit sa decision ko. Hinding hindi kita iggive-up Louie kahit anong pagsubok pa ang ibigay skin, dahil alam ko, na walang pagsubok na bnibigay si God na hindi kaya ng tao. pero sa tulad natin, kailangan alam ntin kung kailan natin iggive-up ang pride natin at humingi ng tulong sa kanya.
Dear, kung nagtataka ka ngyon, bkt ako nagppost ng bagay na gni2, ksi, mxado tayong nafocus sa POSITIVE side ng buhay natin. ndi natin nakita ung perspective ng buhay. Pero dear, sobrang thankful ako sa Kanya ksi binigyan nya ako ng pagiisip na marunong magreflect at magreact.
Nagreflect ako knina... tpos ayun, may nagpop na thought :
YOU WILL NEVER KNOW UNLESS YOU TRY
tapos may sumunod ulit na thought :
FIRST, YOU MUST FILL YOURSELF WITH LOVE, BEFORE YOU CAN SHARE IT TO OTHERS ; IF YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT TRUE LOVE IS, SURRENDER YOUR HEART TO SOMEONE AND HOPE, THAT SHE'LL DO THE SAME
so ayun na, hindi ako magpapatalo sa isip ko lang, kailangan ko din gamitin ung heart ko. kailangan sabay sila gumana para makagawa ako ng tamang desisyon.
Louie, nung time na kniss kta, sinurrender ko na syo kung ano man ang meron ako... alam ko madami kang pinagdaanan, madami ka ng ginawa prin skin, sa tingin ko, ako naman ang dapat magsacrifice, or magbigay para syo. at binibigay ko ang heart ko. alam ko dear, na may side ako na "greedy", sarili ko lang iniisip ko. pero nagrreflect ako, para mabago agad, para mabalanse ko ang pananaw ko sa buhay.
Isa lang ang desisyon ko. Yun ay yung i-take ang risk na magstart ng relationship kasama ka. Alam natin mahihirapan tyong pareho, pero alam din natin sa sarili natin na, mahal talaga natin ang isa't-isa kaya natin nagawang i-take yung risk na yun. Kahit na magkalayo tayo sa binigay na oras, tinanggap natin ang pagsubok na to. Sabay natin tong malalampasan, di kita papabayaan, aalagaan kita, mamahalin kita. Ayoko na, ayoko nang tumambay pa sa comfort zone ko, dahil hindi ganun ang buhay, hindi pa-easy easy lang... Louie, ano man ang negative na naisip ko, iiwasan kong mangyari yun. Sorry, inisip ko lang ang sarili ko nung time na yun. Pero nabigyan agad ako ng time, para makapagreflect, para mabago ko ang takbo ng isip ko.
FINAL :
Ngayon lang ang chance na mabubuhay ako, ngayon lang din ang chance na bigyan ako ng blessing na ganito, ngayon lang ako nakatanggap ng ganitong kahirap na pagsubok,... lastly, NGAYON LANG AKO PWEDENG MAGMAHAL NG TAONG TULAD NI LOUIE at hindi ko hahayaan malampasan ako ng chance na to. Ngayon ko lang pwedeng magawa to, at ngayon ang chance, para mabawi ko lahat ng napost ko na negative. NGAYON lang. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.
Courage isn't lack of fear. It isn't being without fear. Courage is being afraid but still doing what you should do
now what? as i have said to my friends, we all need balance to have a fruitful, enjoyable, meaningful life. i'll share to you my dear readers what are the MOST positive and negative thoughts of mine:
*ok tagalog na ako, mas gusto ko magexplain ng tagalog, bleh* =p
POSITIVE:
gusto ko i-focus e2ng thread na to sa amin ni Louie, sorry mejo biased ako sa blog ko. lagi nlng kmi. pero e2, isshare ko lng ang mga pinaka-POSITIVE na bagay na naiisip ko pra sming dalawa.
ok e2 na...
sa totoo lng, halos lahat ng nsa blog na to, positive eh.. isa sa pinakamagandang thought ay ung malampasan namin 2ng challenge ngyon, e2ng pagkakalayo nmin sa isa't-isa. ang maging legal sa parents, magkaron ng magandang trabaho, magkaron ng family, at tumanda ng kmi parin ang magkasama, yung tipong, e2 na eh, ang tawag ng karamihan, DESTINY... so nasa isip ko, DESTINY na ang naglapit sa amin pareho. Si God ang humatak sming dalawa. Dahil alam nya na, para kami sa isa't-isa, pinagtagpo nya kmi, para ma-share nya ung love nya skin, at mashare ko din ung love para sa kanya.
pero kahit sobrang positive ang mga naiisip ko, humihingi prin ako ng 2long kay God, ksi hindi naman to mangyayari kung wala ung mga prayers, kung wala ang desire nming dalawa na mangyari ang mga bagay na yun, at kung wala si God.
sa sobrang positive ko magisip, ngayon ko lang nag-pop sa utak ko... ang selfish ko pala, dahil puro "happy" thoughts nalang, na para bang ayaw ko na magkaroon ng "problema". pero sabi ko sa sarili ko... "nagiisip lang naman ako ng positive para mabawasan ung lungkot ko eh"... tama ba ginagawa ko? hindi ko alam eh, Siya lang ang makakapgsabi. oh well...
NEGATIVE:
tpos na sa positive... e2 na.. sa mga nagbabasa parin, SORRY... nagsSORRY na ako dahil SOOOOBBRRAANNG NEGATIVE ng "negative" ko... oh well, gni2 ako magisip eh.. ok e2 na.
nung sinabi skin ng mom and dad ko na pnta daw kmi ng U.S... sa una, ayoko, bata pa ako, hindi pa ako handa, tpos, nung dumaan ang 1yr na ndi pa nkkaalis, naexcite ako, sbi ko sa sarili ko, mukhang masaya ang buhay dun... tpos, e2, college life.. ndi ko ineexpect na magkaron ng "G.G. (God's Gift)" o kya sa pinakakilalang term eh, "girlfriend". so yun, nasabi ko pa sa sarili ko, ayaw kong magka-GG ksi masasaktan ko lng xa pag-alis ko..
2nd yr ako, month of january, may nagus2han aqng girl, 1st yr plng xa... bsta long story.. ayun, ff>>> na natin,. so yun, ang result, ndi nman naging kami.. ang reason "PAALIS NA NAMAN SIYA EH, PARA SAN PA?". TAMA SIYA. paalis na nga din naman.. para san pa?! pareho lng kming masasaktan.
NAISIP KO.. E2 ANG GUSTO NI GOD, AYAW NYA AKO MAKAPANAKIT NG TAO.
so e2 na, nakilala ko si Louie. at naging kami. at ngayon, e2 na agad ang PAGSUBOK na hinaharap namin. pinaglayo agad kami.. sobrang wala sa timing diba??? bkt? ibalik natin ung "GUSTO NI GOD"...
alam ko napaka-NEGATIVE ne2.. pano kung, hindi pala kami para sa isa't-isa?!? sa simula't simula palang, nasabi ko na sa sarili ko ndi ako magkaka-lovelife dahil makakapanakit lng ako ng ibang tao. so, ako na din mismo ang hindi sumunod sa sinabi ko. in the first place, HINDI "pala" kami para sa isa't-isa. ang negative diba?
ngayon naman, sa sobrang negative ng naisip ko, eh nasabi ko sa sarili ko... "at least naisip ko 2ng bagay na to para mahanda na rin ako sa kahit anong mangyari, ksi... LIFE IS UNPREDICTABLE" ang magandang side ng pag-iisip ng negative eh, lumalakas ang loob ko na tanggapin ang bagay na pwedeng mangyari... pangit man mag-isip ng negative, may magandang naidudulot prin to, ksi binabalik nya ung isip mo sa REALITY
"Imagine life as a game in which you are juggling some five balls in the air. You name them - Work, Family, Health, Friends, Spirit - & you're keeping all of these in the air. You will soon understand that Work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back. But the other four balls - Family, Health, Friends, Spirit - are made of glass. If you drop one of these, they will be irrevocably scuffed, marked, nicked, damaged, or even shattered. They will never be the same. You must understand that and strive for balance in your life." - Brian G. Dyson, Coca-Cola, CEO
"Sometimes we are asked how we rank our priorities in life and we answer: God first, Family second, then Work. But tell me. How would you rank the time you spent for each?" - anonymous
"Life is meaningless until you find something worth living, or dying for." -anonymous
"2 questions will be asked of you before entering paradise: Are you finding joy? Are you giving joy?" - Egyptian Myth
"You would want a business that nobody else wants to be in."
"There is no secret in success. But there is a formula."
"Courage isn't lack of fear. It isn't being without fear. Courage is being afraid but still doing what you should do." - Steve Lund
"We are a product of neither nature or nurture, we are a product of choice." - Stephen Covey
"When you work, God is looking. And he rewards perseverance." - Jasmine Liew
"You have just stumbled upon the greatest opportunity on earth." - Troy Dunn (Oprah, Dr. Phil)
1. "Be confident, because you know where you're going" - S.M.
I think the number one cause of anxiety in people right now is uncertainty. Having a goal and a clear direction plus the right "vehicle" to get there should do the work.
2. "If I tell you to jump, jump. Don't ask me how, I'll tell you how high." - D.O.
So many questions to ask. But in a business w/ a perfect system, all you have to do is follow.
3. "Successful people will do what unsuccessful people will not do. That's why successful people get what unsuccessful people can never have."
No explanation needed.
4. "Fake it til you make it"
Everything starts in the mind. What the mind can conceive, the body can achieve.
5. "Leaders are always the highest paid"
Unless you're a leader, you are a mediocre.
6. "The best commitment in life is the commitment to overcome all challenges"
There is no victory without a battle.
7. "Embrace objections. It's just like eating a banana." - Daniel Poon
Peeling off people's smokescreens until you see the real them, and they see the real you.
8. "Growth is uncomfortable"
No pain, no gain.
9. "If I don't try, I'll never know"
Sometimes it's good to be skeptic. But do not become close-minded. You will become POOR (Passing over opportunities repeatedly)
10. "The biggest room in the world is the room for improvement"
That's why life, when lived right, is never boring
someone can hurt you physically and u'll probably just settle the score after that. but when hurtful words are spoken, it cuts through the core of your soul even causing physical pain. that's why we should be careful what we say to people.
nako!!! nako talaga!!! at akalain mong nagkaroon pa ng part 2!
wuhooo!!
so eto, mejo nawili kmi sa pagcchat ni louie nung madaling araw... tae ang tanga ko naman, nkalimutan ko kung kailan nangyari to... hayop hayop...
eh bsta, madaling araw un, tpos.. magoout na dapat xa, ksi nga sobrang late na, eh gs2 pa nmin magchat.. tpos may dagdag problema pa, di mkarcve ng txt, di rin xa mkapagtxt skin. SABAW! eh sbi ko bumili xa ng bgong sim sa umaga, sbi ko bili nlng xa agad... tpos, nung nagOK na, eh di nagout na kmi sa ym, tpos... tntxt ko xa sa chikka, eh baka pumasok ung txt eh
nagggood nyt na ako nun kht madaling araw, ksi gs2 q magpahinga na xa... pero ang alam ko gumagawa xa ng plate nun eh. so tnxt ko xa na magpahinga na NANG
BIGLANG
may nagtxt...
globe ung number...
at nung nabasa ko...
si
LOUIE!!!
ayun... kamusta naman!?!?! alas-tres ng umaga?!? bibili ka ng sim? huwOw ha!!! eh di ako boy panic, swabe eh! anong oras na para bumili ng kung anong bagay man, pagkain pwede pa bilhin sa gnung oras eh, pero sim. wow ha talaga.
eh di ako, xempre unang reaction ko.. inis agad, na slight-galit, ksi anong oras na, kamusta nman, para lng sa isang sim. buti nlng sinabi nya na kasama nya kuya nya. woooh! nako nako... kung nandyan ako tatakbuhin ko hanggang dyan sa apartment nyo at kukurutin ko yang pisngi mo. tae ka dear. alam mo bang muntik na ako magKRUMP d2 sa garahe dhl sa kaba. haha! nako, buti ndi na2loy. kundi magkakagulo ung mga gamit d2... woooh!
at nung nalaman ko na sinamahan nga xa ni kuya nya, ayun.. xempre, kinilig ung batok ko, nanginig ung patilya ko. yikeee! haha :) ksi naman, gawin ba naman ung gnon?!? pra sa isang bulinggit na sim. wow ha. THANK YOU DEAR! :) I LOVE YOU! pero muntik mo parin ako patayin tae ka dear. =/
*deary, wag mong i-risk ung safety mo pra skin... eh ako nga nagppray ng safety mo eh, so please.. wag mo ulit gwin un ha?*
8am ang pasok nya, at wala ni isang txt, kht goodmorning wala...
ako naman..
wOw ha!!!
at nagtxt pa ako kay macci para sabhin na gising si louie...
eh walang reply si macci, so inisip ko gcng na. eh wla prin eh, ndi prin nagttxt.. sabaw na ako.. kung ano ano na naisip ko. swabe lang eh. nainis ako, ksi, bka maabsent nnman xa, yokong ma2lad xa sakin na napakasipag na nilalang... tae talaga...
tpos, may nagtxt...
number ni earl ung nagregister...
at biruin mong si louie pla ang nagtxt, anong oras na un, mga 8:20 na ata. sobrang sabaw pagiisip ko nun! tae. sobrang kaba ko kala ko kung ano nangyari, kung naconfiscate nnman ba phone nya.. o kung ano. =/
sobrang pagaalala ko, na naiyak ako bigla. talagang sabaw eh... mga 5:30 plng sa pinas nagttxt na ako, pra magcng agad xa, ilang oras ako naghihintay ng txt.. tpos, ayun... ndi daw nya narrcve mga txts ko. swabe talaga.
wooooh!!!
1st time kinabahan ng gnun.
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*tae ka dear... ayoko na ulit maranasan ung gnung bagay... text text!!! i love you dear*
pinakilala ni nica ung barkada nya, nung gumagawa sila ng malaking daga nung cfad week. kasi naman, kapag kinakamusta ko si nica, ang tatahimik nila. >.< cla louie,teta,macci. tpos nahalata ko na, ang tahimik ni louie kapag kinakausap ko sila. ayun. :) kapag nsa sc ako, tpos lalabas ako, nandun si migs, tpos magpapa2ro bigla ng sayaw ni Chris Brown... tpos nandun cla, nahalata ko ung pressure kay louie :)
1st pic
nung nsa lobby, photo mosaic sa ad prac nila... ung white background.. sakto paglabas ko ng elevator, bigla nila aqng niyaya sa picture. haha! kaya pla nila ako hinahanap dhl dun. so un. eh wla aqng cellphone nung time na yun. sablay. pero at least nakita ko pa sila. tpos, nassense ko na parang nagkakagulo dun sa likod ko, at prang may nagbubulungan na ewan... kaya natatawa ako nung kinuhanan nila ako ng picture. haha tae kasi eh. ayan, pangit 2loy. >.<
1st Ride
thursday night, after ko ihatid si Sam sa dorm nya, hinila ata ako ng cfad nun eh. bumalik ako sa beato para maghanap ng makakasama pauwi. kasama ko si louie, nica, papa joms, at terrence. an2k na an2k ako nyan. haha. kaya mejo walang nangyari, pero yan ang 2nd hug <3
1st HUG Vigan
after nmin hanapin ni seph si macci, bumalik na kmi ng bus, at tnwag ako bgla ng blockm8 ko, na may naghahanap daw skin. ayun, si macci and louie, nagssory si macci dhl hinanap pa nmin xa. tpos, ako ok lang, no sweat. tpos nagyakapan kmi after nun. <3 ang tipid ng salita ni louie nun. haha di ko maxadong matandaan mga cnabi nya. pero ang tahimik prin nya.
2nd HUG
paghatid kila nica at louie sa mrt, hi-top after q nun ihatid si Sam sa dorm nya. bumalik ako sa cfad, di ko alam kung bakit, naghahanap cguro ako ng kasama pauwi, malapit na mag9pm nun eh. tpos, nakita ko si nica, louie, papa joms, at terrence. so nung nsa fx kmi, andun nnman ung feeling na prang may nangyayaring iba sa paligid ko. haha! so nagkukulitan daw cla nica at louie sa loob ng fx, prang gs2 ata sumandal ni louie skin, gets ko naman eh.. na prang nahihilo xa, so ako talagang nahihilo ako nung time na yun, kaya mejo nka2log ata ako. haha pasenxa na dear :)
1st Lasingan Moment
party na gnawa ng block nila, nakitulong lng ako. haha. ininvite ko ung blocko ko, pero dlwa lng kmi ni seph ang nkapnta, pasalamat ako sa knya ksi, kung ndi ko xa nkita pakalat kalat sa ust, eh soloista ako. haha.
1st Sleeping Time
nung party nila macci, pinahiga ko xa sa lap ko, nung una mejo sa tuhod lng, ayaw nya gumalaw eh, tpos nung ako na ung nahihirapan sa position nya, pinahiga ko na xa sa lap ko. sobrang cute nya ma2log <3
1st Sandal-moment
magkatabi kmi ni louie, nka2log, ng nakaupo, take note, sakop ko ung buong upuan, di ko alam kung pno xa nka2log ng position na yun.
1st Holding Hand
ayan, ung pic sa taas, ksi, nafeel ko ung kamay nya nun. ewan ko lng.. haha! bsta, ang alam ko nahawakan ko kamay nya ng matagal.
1st Beso
pauwi na si louie, ndi xa mkkapagovernight eh. sayang. super sad ako sa totoo lng, ksi may gusto aqng ikwen2 sa knya nung time na yun. nung nagbbye na xa. sobrang HIGPIT ng hug nya skin, tpos ung hug nya skin, parang bbagsak xa, na sinalo ko xa. tpos bineso nlng nya ako, feeling ko gs2 nya q i-kiss pero feeling lng naman. haha. pasenxa. kung kniss mo ko nun, nako, tayo na agad! :) haha. i love you dear <3
1st Cuddle
sa jeep, take note, sa jeep! ang unique ng mga first time nmin eh. haha! maxadong malubak ang dinaanan ng jeep na aming nasakyan, pablik kming trinoman nun. para ihatid ko xa sa apartment. nmmiss ko ung paghatid ko sayo louie. sobra. sobra sobra.
1st Holding Hands (locked fingers)
haha! oh ha, umaasenso. e2 ung nagswimming kmi, after nun. pauwi kmi nun, sa likod kmi nila louie,bombee, at ji. soooo.. un na, nung mejo inaan2k ako, mejo nagising ako, nkahawak ung kamay nya. so sabay ako xempre. gs2 ko din naman hawakan kamay nya eh. tpos, nung nakita nila bombee at ji.. sumisignal sila. haha! tpos tnanong ako ni bombee, "ok ba?" habang tinuturo nya ung pagkaholding hands nmin ni louie. haha! sbi ko, "swabe lang" :)
1st FLIRT
haha! tae! pinipilit ko si louie na sbhin nya ung blog nya. tpos, ginamit ko charms ko. haha! niyakap ko xa, cnucuddle habang nagllakad... ayun.. ang cute nmin sobra! wala kming pakialam sa paligid, bsta, xa lang nsa isip ko nun :)
1st "I miss you" moment
nung nagiinuman kmi ng mga brkda, ayun... mejo sablay utak ko. haha! nasabi ko ng wala sa oras. pero sa 22o lang, miss na miss ko na talaga xa nun. nun ko lang nasabi, ksi gnusto ko tlgang sbhin agad sa kanya.
1st kiss
june 7 naging kmi ni louie makalipas ang ilang pangyayari, napalayo agad ako sa kanya. di ko napansin ang oras. bkt gnun naman. fast forward yung happy times nmin, magkasama, nagkukulitan, nagmmahalan. june 22 lipad ko pagdating ko d2 sa states, bkt gnun? parang ang bagal gumalaw ng oras? naisip ko, kasi may hinihintay ako, hinihintay ko matapos ang 5years, para makasama ko ulit si louie. bibilis kaya ang panahon kung tanggalin ko ung paghihintay ko? at hayaan ko nlng muna ang buhay na tangayin ako? cguro, mas mapapadali nga ang oras ko, ksi ndi na ako maaatat na matpos ung 5years. pero natatakot ako, pno kung nawala aqng track sa time? pano na?
july 7
HAPPY 1 MONTH OLD sa relationship ntin my dear! <3 i love you so much louie! sooooo... speaking of fast forward, nka 1 month na agad kmi! pero parang kulang, ksi, kahit sulit man namin ung time namin nung magkasama kmi, mabilis lumipas ang oras. di ko talaga maintindhan, kapag magkasama kmi, ang bilis ng oras, ngyon magkalayo kami, napakabagal. grabeng pagsubok to.
totoo nga, e2 ang pinakamahirap na pagsubok na pwedeng maranasan ng dlawang taong nagmamahalan, ang mapalayo sa isa't-isa. pano natin mapapabilis ang oras? nkakatawa noh. ndi naman natin kontrolado ung oras. nakikisabay lang tyo. pero, anong dapat nting gawin para hindi natin mapansin ung oras? sa tingin ko, e2 ang pinakamalakas na salita sa lahat, ung LOVE. salita lang xa. pero once na nafeel mo na, once na gnagawa mo na din yan, babaguhin at babaguhin ka nya.
May bago na akong idadagdag na kataga sa buhay ko : "I will fully trust a person until they give me a reason not to"
May isa pa akong narealize na maganda sa long distance relationship "the pleasure of seeing your sweetheart again after a long absence"
"Consider the fact that living far apart gives you both a chance to grow as individuals. Some couples break up to "FIND THEMSELVES". But in a long distance relationship you both have enough space to do your own things and still have a connection"
mejo matagal aq bgo mkapagupdate ng blog... so here comes nothing...
ang daming nsa isip ko. sasabog ako kapag indi ko pa mailabas.
ang hirap ng buhay! haha. kailan ba nging madali dba ? so yun, sa kahirapan ng buhay, mas lalo pa ntin pinapahirapan ang buhay ntin. pano? hindi ko alam. pero cguro, puro tyo reklamo, di matanggap ang mga bagay na nangyayari sa paligid ntin, puro dada. hindi nlng tanggapin, at mag-adapt sa nangyayari, para kht ppno, nabawasan ang kahirapan.
halo-halo ang nsa isip ko ngyon, ndi ko alam kung pno ko macconnect. sa sobrang dami, gs2 ko ilabas ung iba. pasenxa na dear bloggers.
napagusapan nmin ni maccigirl knina, ung 2ngkol sa pagddance ko...
nasabi ko sa kanya, na sobrang nadisappoint ako sa sarili ko. ksi, onti onti na aqng kinakain ng talento ko. bkt? "I PLEASE MYSELF AS I PLEASE OTHERS". So? Onti onti na aqng nilalayo sa main reason ng 1SHADE, and that's to please God.
nasabi ko din sa kanya na, mga sigaw ng tao ang naririnig ko, ung pag cheer nila sa 1SHADE, ung pagcheer nila sa pangalan ko, pero ung cheer ni God skin, onti onting nagffade, bkt? Ksi once na gumalaw na ako sa stage, gusto ko ioffer kay God, pero anong nangyayari, mas nabbgyan ko ng pansin ung mga cheer nila na "WOAH!!"... "galing nya oh!", eh ang cheer Nya? Mahilig magWHISPER si God sa buhay natin, at mahirap mapakinggan yun kung wala kang connection sa Kanya, guess what, pinahirapan pa nya marinig ang WHISPER nya, dhl ndi natin alam kung nsan xa, kung klan xa bubulong, kung klan nya sasabhin stin, "IM PROUD OF YOU".
pno ko nasabing kinakain na ako ng talent ko? ng pagssayaw? ksi yan nlng lgi ang gs2 qng gawin, grabe, kahit panaginip ko nagssayaw ako maniwala kyo't sa hinde. to think, nag-CFAD ako dhl sa dance troupe. pno kung mapilayan ako, ano future ko. ung CFAD? eh kamusta, ndi ako magaling magdrawing, ano pa22nguhan ko. masyado aqng naging makasarili, nafocus ako sa isang bagay lang. ndi ko manlng namalayan na nwwlan na pla ako ng focus sa studies, family at friends. onti onti din aqng pinabagsak ng pgddance ko, dahil nasacrifice ko ang time ko for my family, friends, and for myself.
sobrang nadisappoint ako sa sarili ko kasi ndi ko mabalanse ung mga bagay na gustong gusto kong gawin, laging may naiiwan, laging may nassacrifice na isa, dlawa o tatlong bagay. bakit ndi ko nlng sabay sabayin? WOW ha! tao ako para mapagod, tao ako para marunong tumanggap ng kahinaan, na hindi ko kaya gawin lahat ng magisa.
so dear readers, alam nyo na ang masamang part ng pagssayaw ko, sa tingin nyo lagi aqng masaya when i dance, thats true! pero, onti onti na rin aqng binabaon dhl ndi ko na alam kung cno ba tlga ang "audience" ko. mga tao, si God, o ako.
I remember the times we spent together On those drives We had a million questions All about our lives And when we got to New York Everything felt right I wish you were here with me Tonight
I remember the days we spent together Were not enough And I used to feel like dreamin' Except we always woke up Never thought not having you here now Would hurt so much
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up I need your loving hands to come and pick me up And every night I miss you, I can just look up And know the stars are Holding you, holding you, holding you Tonight
I remember the time you told me About when you were eight And all those things you said that night That just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in And the games we would play All the times we spilled our coffees And stayed out way too late
I remember the time you sat and told me About your Jesus And how not to look back Even if no one believes us When it hurts so bad Sometimes not having you here I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up I need your loving hands to come and pick me up And every night I miss you, I can just look up And know the stars are Holding you, holding you, holding you Tonight
I sing Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up I need your loving hands to come and pick me up And every night I miss you I can just look up And know the stars are Holding you, holding you, holding you Tonight
cge, bilangin nyo kung ilang butil ng bigas yan, tpos i-times nyo, gnun ko kamahal ang taong yan, si luday. ayan.
bkt sa rice?! eh yung pangalan ko inispell nya sa pancakes... cheap ba ako? ndeh!! haha! :) kaya kanin yan, ksi, hindi ako mabubuhay ng hindi kumakain ng kanin! tpos, cnulat ko ang name nya dyan sa kanin, ksi, hindi rin ako mabubuhay ng wala xa! :)
[Verse 1:] She's the type of chick Can't live without take her home let her meet your momma Won't trip when your phone rings off the hook Ain't with that extra drama Overlooks the fact that sometimes you don't know how to act when you get a little tipsy or trippin or flippin she sucks it in
can keep her cool won't show out on you while you around your fellas find some more pics of you and your ex's and she don't get jealous even when you get locked up you can call her up she's there for you that's the kind of girl you need one that you can wifey
[Chorus:] sometimes you don't know how what you've got 'til you lose what you've got when you should just wife her don't wait too late you'll miss a good thing go and get the ring and tell her that you wife her [x2]
[Verse 2:] the type of chick that wont get slick and keep you from your kids wont get buck wild and clown now she's telling all your biz a queen you don't have to crown she knows how to hold it down likes to feel you inside her and she tells you don't give out
even though she's temporary she keeps it tight just like your married she'll be the same without the ring cause she knows how to play the game and when you can't do without she maxes out the cards for you that's the kind of girl you need one that you can wifey
[Chorus:] sometimes you don't know how what you've got 'til you lose what you've got when you should just wife her don't wait too late you'll miss a good thing go and get the ring and tell her that you wife her [x2]
[Verse 3:] She'll fix your credit but the Jordan's on the debit better pay her back but she insists that you don't sweat it she's no groupie tell me I'm her one and only ghetto superstar on the right next to my heart
[Chorus:] sometimes you don't know how what you've got 'til you lose what you've got when you should just wife her don't wait too late you'll miss a good thing go and get the ring and tell her that you wife her
I need you boo I gotta see you boo And the hearts all over the world tonight Said the hearts all over the world tonight I need you boo I gotta see you boo And the hearts all over the world tonight Said the hearts all over the world tonight
Hey lil' mama, ooh you're a stunner Hot little figure, yes you a winner, and I'm so glad to be yours You're a class of your own and Ooh little cutie, when you talk to me I swear the whole world stops You're my sweetheart and I'm so glad that you're mine You are one of a kind, and You mean to me what I mean to you And together baby there is nothing we won't do
'Cause if I got you I don't need money I don't need cars Girl you're my all
And oh, I'm into you and Girl no one else would do Cause with every kiss and every hug You make me fall in love And now I know I can't be the only one I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight With the love of their life who feel What I feel when I'm with you, with you, with you, with you, with you... girl With you, with you, with you, with you, with you... Oh girl
I don't want nobody else Without you there's no one left, and You're like Jordans on Saturday I gotta have you and I cannot wait now Hey lil shorty, say you care for me You know I care for you You know that I will be true You know that I won't lie You know that I will try Be your everything
'Cause if I got you I don't need money I don't need cars Girl you're my all
Oh, I'm into you and Girl no one else would do Cause with every kiss and every hug You make me fall in love And now I know I can't be the only one I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight With the love of their life who feel What I feel when I'm with you, with you, with you, with you, with you... ohhh With you, with you, with you, with you, with you... Yeah
And I will never try To deny that you are my whole life 'Cause if you ever let me go I would die so I won't front I don't need another woman I just need you're all or nothing 'Cause if I got that Then I'll be straight Baby you're the best part of my day
I need you boo I gotta see you boo And the hearts all over the world tonight Said the hearts all over the world tonight They need their boo They gotta see their boo Said the hearts all over the world tonight Hearts all over the world tonight
And oh, I'm into you and Girl no one else would do Cause with every kiss and every hug You make me fall in love And now I know I can't be the only one I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight With the love of their life who feel What I feel when I'm with you, with you, with you, with you, with you... ohhh(girl) With you, with you, with you, with you, with you... ohhh With you, with you, with you, with you, with you... With you, with you, with you, with you, with you...
Distance is just a test to see how far love can travel I wondered whether good things really do happen to me, because after you were given to me, we have to be on opposite ends of the earth. Now, I know that they do happen, because being with you, for just one second, is the best thing that I have ever been blessed with I never knew what love was until I met you, then when distance pulled us apart, I found out what true love is
We are the perfect couple, we're not just in the perfect situation
Good things come to those who wait, but better things come to those who are patient
The distance between us only increases our desire
Even if you are far away, you are always close to my heart. It's good that we are far away because we learn the patient to wait for each other You know we're the last two pieces to a big puzzle; we just need to figure out where those pieces go and meet there
Missing you is the kind of hurt my heart should be thankful to feel Not being able to hold your hand has got to be the hardest thing I've ever had to do. But I get to look forward to the next time you are in my arms; your smile only inches away from mine getting closer and closer until at last... our smiles meet. Something that beautiful... that's what keeps me going
I'd rather be missing you than loving someone else
When asked where's heaven, I pointed at you and said "in her arms." So, when you wonder why I always say I would love to die in your arms, it's because I know I'll end up in heaven Distance is the greatest test. A love that survives this great test is a love that is 'Quality Inspected and Guaranteed for Life
Distance is the key to love's eternity Distance is the test of our love, so if we survive it we are going to be forever
